German courses

In the first two years of college, I studied German in school, earning 12 credits in total. But to be honest, I wasn't really satisfied with my performance in this area. I was frustrated after the first semester, when it became harder and harder, I wasn't able to keep up with the rest of the class, and I often did not understand the teacher very well. I am a slow learner, I need much more time than the others to digest what I had learned. But the pace was just way too fast and I believe I started to lose interest in it day by day.

Until now, I am still afraid to reopen my dust-covered textbook and start to face it from the beginning. My classmate, Debby, who was also going to Germany as an exchange student, invited me to take some German courses at a private cram school. I am really willing to do so, but upon hearing the fact that I had to take a test first to decide which class you will be assigned to makes me uncomfortable. I dread how others would see me when I turn out to be really bad at German even after learning it for two years. I know I am running away from it, but is there any way that can help me?

In the end, I know I still have to face it. Nothing will stop me from going to Germany, it is just that I will have to put hope and faith into myself. Next week probably, I will start my first course, before that, let me find my long-forgotten German textbook and fall in love with it.